time flies.....in a week's time it'll be nov alr....n soon i'll be taking my end yr exam....so fast....it's been 2mths since sch started...n within 2 mths my sch is finishing lects alr....they've squeezed 2yrs of studies into these short short 2mths....i didn take up chem n bio during jc so i guess it will be kinda tough for mi when i dun understand all e chim chim terms....nxt wk CA2 alr...=( 3 papers in a wk....phys mat sci n maths...=X all bcoz of e deepavali holiour maths paper was shifted up 1 wk in advance....sians!!!

e wk after tat another 1 CA paper for life sci.....

den st after my CA papers...my major exam will start on e 14th of nov!!yeah so happy...=X arrrggghhss 5 papers to go n i'm left wif 2 more wks to study.....sadded worse thing is i m not stressing myself enuf....i guess i'll be disappointed wif e results agains.....

this few days have to take time out to go view flats again....i'm shifting hm again!my hm was sold n we have 3mths left to move out....haiez.....kinda packed for e whole mth....i didn wish to move....really troublesome....dun understand wat adults are thinking.....y go through all e bother to make life so difficult....haiez

i was disappointed again.....i had really wish to go to e zoo...yet we didn get to go again yest....yest was his off day yet he still had to go out wif his boss to do sum work....when he came back it was alr near 1pm n e zoo close at 6pm....by e time we finish preparing it will be 2plus...i guess traveling needs abt 1hr bahz....2hrs left to visit...hahas den still go for wat....i skipped lect for tat day n i evn missed my og lunch outing tat afternoon to wait for him....he didn evn let mi knoe when he'll be back...he left w/o saying anything....though he ddidn mind going to e zoo wif mi after tat but i guess evn if he did we wudn have enjoyed ourselves bahz....

seriously i dun understand why his attitude seems to have changed....=( we seem to talk much lesser nowadays.....evn when he calls either i will be listening to him talk abt his work or else vry less words were exchanged.....he takes long to rply smses or otherwises doesn evn rply to them.....it makes mi feel kinda bad though i dun say.....i knoe he's stress wif work....bz wif it...i dun mind listenign to him complain at least he might feel btr after talking to sumbody but i seems to be neglected bcoz of his work....=X

i'm someone who demands alot of attention....so i guess i m rather unhappy wif this....sumitmes it seems he doesn really bother much n i have to be understanding towards all this....i m trying....but dunno whether he can be understanding towards mi too or nots?if i were to tell him all these will there be quarrels again?haiez...i guess have to remian quiet den....sumtimes i wish i were his fren instead bcoz he seems to be more willing to pei his frens....

DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE THIS MUCH?

A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
Girl hugs him
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day :( A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only one had survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug him one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

hmmmm 16th of oct was our 6th mths together le.....but we had planned to celebrate on e 17th instead coz he wasn working n i ended sch early......

we had planned to enjoy a day out at e zoo n after tat a nite out at meridian mandarain hotel.....but in e end we did none of tat....haiez to tell e truth i was a little disappointed....coz i was kinda looking forward to it....but suan le bahz.....=X

instead we had our lunch at tpy...my fav curry pork chop rice....=) after tat went hm to rest n we both fell aslp on e sofa....hahs went to cine to have our dinner....dine in at 'hip's diner' e ambience there was kinda cute...he had beef n strawberry shakes for dinner while i had mixed grill n choc shakes!my food didn taste as gd as his....i had wanted to swope over but stop myself.....coz canot be selfish hmmmm.....but e choc shake===2 thumbs up....u choc taste is heavenly....awwwwww i ate till i was so damn full i puke imme when i got to e toilet....sadded

after tat had wanted to meet his frens for a movie but cudn flag cab so went for our own movie instead.....'se jie' is not nice.....i dun like tat movie......i nearly fell aslp in my seats....but e female lead acted quite well n she was really vry pitiful in e show....

took neoprint.....tat was sumting tat really made my day.....thou e pics came out terrible but at least he was finally willing to take it wif mi le...coz he said he dun like taking pics....=X hope in e coming days i will still be able to use e neoprints machines again.....hahs

end yr exams nearing alr.....needa prepare soon but i'm sooo tireds......no more mood to studys....=((

hmmmm its been kinda of a long wk.....been sick from last week till nows...=.= wat sickness actually i also dunno....evryday wake up=headache+cough+flu+evry nite getting nitemare so sadded......i dreamt of sum1 throwing worms at mi...aaaaaarrrggghsss!!!been feeling vry vry lazy this few days didn have e energy nor mood to do anything.....simply nth at all....also dunno wats wrong....haiez

went out wif jas to kbox on thurs.....sang for abt 4hrs.....jialats luckily i'm strong didn lose my voice hhohoho but it was fun isn it....2 ppl in kbox nobody to fight ovr wif u for e mic hahas....thus another kbox outing agains bahz.....=)

fri went out wif him.....i guess this shuld be e 3rd time we went for a movie tgt bbahz.....hahas watch resident evil...it was kinda nice show bahz i've alwaz like e female lead she looks so cool n sexy...awww i'm not lesbian okok i juz find her pretty only....hmmmm i was jumpy throughout e whole show.....n he complained tat he was shocked by mi instead of e show lol

cuming tues wud be our 6th mth tgt alr.....time seems to fly vry fast....i find it real comfortable being able to rest in his arms....but e hugs seems to cum n go.....sumtimes it really feels kinda tiring like this....if i hadn made tat choice back den.....maybe i wudn be feeling this bad nows alr.....thou i m happy wif him but i guess e prob is e gals again bahz.....hahas yea i know he had alr said they were frens.....frens n frens but i guess i still cant get used to my bf 'sweet-talking' to other gals bahz......i dun do tat kinda stuffs maybe tats y i expect e same from my guy too bahz....haiez but he's been real sweet this few days....

i had hoped for a long n stable r/s but i guess like alwaz is been said tat nth lasts forever bahz....so i guess if its really time to let go no matter how hard its going to be still have to face it bravely bahz....hahas but i really hope this day wun cum so fast yet bahz.....hahas