hmmm.....going to work soon....dunno y this few days seems to b having isomnia sia.....also dunno y cant seems to slp at all....n i get jotted up easily for no reason...but i feel really tired from e lack of slp....haiez....sum1 give mi sum slping pills yeh....

hmmm work was slack....evryday talk+drink+walk ard stand ard do nth....not bad....but bad thing is i've been getting diarrhoea from all e alcohols....1 day at least will lao sai 3 times lorz....*sick*

sum1 bring mi out to play can....i'm feeling bored from staying hm all days......i wanna go out i wanna go out...arrrrggghhhsss.....

yeah i found new job le....but its not e kinda job parents will approve of e....hmmm its ez to guess wat it is arhs....yah i work in e nite...hmmm didn expect e person to call mi anymore coz he was supposed to call bfore my bday lahz but yest den call lorz....den i had to report for work immediately....my sis working wif mi e arhs...i'm not alone...

but yest she wasn free den i had to b e only waitress there....summore e other 2 'old birds' didn cum also so left mi alone to fend for myself...but my bosses vry gd to mi....helped mi alot yest showed mi e ropes n all....took vry vry gd care of mi n introduced mi to alot of ppl there....

e job is not as bad as i tot it to b....e customers were really frendly n nice....no lao pek pek ehs...at least 1st day didn met any yet....i seem to b playing all e time instead of working lorz....chatted wif customers n played games den poured drinks tats all i did....initially didn wanna talk to them e but den e boss told mi have to lorz....=x say muz interact wif them for my own gd....

1st time in my life i nearly got drunk....5mugs of beer but i still stood st arhs n i cud walk in st lines....*phew* but after awhile felt btr le...hmmm got shuai ges arhs....they were e 1 who made mi drunk e....i drank beer n he drank iced water...den he say he driving canot drink...=_=""" they waited for mi to knock off say wanna send mi hm coz made mi drunk....but my boss went back wif mi instead soo too bad le....haiez

hmmm talked to 2 uncles....they told mi abt life n all stuffs....told mi to take care of myself n all....1 of them had several business in spore n also ovrseas....den he told mi after i grad can consider signing up wif his company to work...hahahs financial work....seems quite ok horz hmmm can consider sia....lallala

actually i vry scare le....they say after wed e crowd wud b cuming but i still not familar wif e stuffs vry scare things will go wrong....=x

hmmmm awoken from a msg received from jw

jw:"sdl 1381 we same unit as mi"

it made mi jump out from my bed n after tat remained unable to fall back on my pillow again....

jw:"yah he sit bside me all e while...same platoon summore"

haiez den it made my eyes opened evn bigger n it was e 1st time i woken up at 8plus....yeah so happy sia nic same platoon as jw eh soo excited...jumping all ard yah i'm mad....

den here cums e msg tat made mi 晴天霹雳....

"i think he diff le....he got sum medical prob..."

ooohhs sooo sad sia....hmmm jw say think nic went to music n drama le....=xx nvm its his luv so hope he'll b happy in tat unit....hmmm slpt for 2 whole days....feeling sick too le...shuld b from joan e....lalas sick during 2nd day of our trip till now not yet recover sia....so kelian...quick faster get well!!i'm bored i'm vry vry vry bored.....haiez

stolen from muiling's blog =p

YOUR COMPLETE PERSONAL PROFILE:
You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

You like the better things in life. You are sensuous and emotional. You are a follower of the Arts and you seek an environment that will give you the fulfilment to the senses that you need.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.

Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

The tensions that you are trying to cope with are a result of conditions which are really beyond your control. As a consequence of this almost impossible situation and not being able to get your own way, you are subjected to frustration and almost ungovernable anger. You are trying to remedy the situation but the stress that you are experiencing is making the situation even worse. You feel so inadequate that you are not quite sure which way to turn. A good suggestion would to be to try to relieve the stress and anxiety by participating in some very active physical activity which will relieve your tension.

yeah evrybody i'm back.....lalalala~ now feeling soooo energetic n sooooo high high high!!!kekeke

yep trip was fun esp when u're wif frens...BUT BUT BUT tell u arhs...if u're gonna go wif frens remember to bring more $$$....e worse thing tat can happen is not having enuf $$$to spend n u can only look but not buy....soooo sad lahz....haiez but nvm at least i did bring back stuffs lalala~ n arhs remember to double check ur stuffs....i forgot to bring my rubber bands+xtra cam batt+cam charger+dunno+blah blah....sians sia...

1st day:genting...i was practically slping throughout e whole trip lahz....hahahas...tat was bcoz i was too tired ok...n coz of tat i missed out alot of scenery....jw n joan saw a hill of tombstones....not jk arhs its a WHOLE HILL OF TOMBSTONES...blah blah blah n we reached e place...e cold air(not cool arhs) was simply great...sooo damn shiok luv it man....checked into first world hotel den went out to play le...

we only played indoor rides lorz...coz of sum reasons...sad sia but we went to play e pontianak adventure+went to visit ripley's believe it or not....woahs ripley's was real fun....evryting was interesting....went kenny rogers for dinner...food looks nice but...yah e baked beans was nice LOL

we slpt for e 3 nites lorz....sians nobody stayed upt o play wif mi sia....i evn had to watch horror show alone yest nite...=x but arhs seeing each other e slping habits was fun waahahass...

kl was up nxt...when we were on our way to kl e bus stopped at sum choc shop for us to shop....no i didn buy any chocs...coz its ex n ex n EX!summore e ppl there keep urging u buy this buy tat vry wat lorz...i found out 1 thing abt ppl in msia...they r alwaz poaching customers....regardless of whether its in e shops or taxis or food hawkers....they're rally irritating lahz....follow u evn if u say dun wan....arrhhss

our hotel in kl was sooo much btr lahz...food was more like those for humans to eat....food in first world was like yuucckkss i wun take a sec serving at all lorz...i had a vry vry heavy+sumptuos breakfast wahahahaas....shooping+eating+slping tats all i did there...lalala~ n i believe i've gotten a few kilos alr....hahahs great trip but kl's weather was a disaster....didn like it at all...rain/scorching sun....damn it sia...no i didn kena robbed lalala but $$ no enuf too bad only brought 3belts+2shorts+1 crownie bag+presents for my mummy+daddy+uncle+sis= broke....not evn 1cent left in my wallet....hahahas yep i wanna go back again...i got alot of stuffs wanna buy still n i will bring more $ nxt time e....0_0 hmmmm but i'm still more interested in thai n taiwan lorz....lalalala~

woke up early pei her go put her tatoo...stoopid ungrateful bitch dun ask for respect coz u dun deserve any...i dun see any reaon to do so when u dun evn respect mi a little....damn u!

tatoo seems nice but i dun think i'll put it on my body coz i wun b able to stand e pain bahz....but phoenix n dragons n e monsters r real nice looking-esp e baby ghost...though looking fierce/cute but its not advisabe to put them bahz...they're believed to b 'alive'...hmmm evn saw sum ppl putting tatoos of jesus/buddha n evn verses from a bible...all types of tatoos r available...hahahas

i'm tired real tired....last post tmlo on e way alr...haven start packing yet haiez...bye bye

yeah leaving for genting on wed....4d3n in msia....hope i wun get robbed or typhoon cum blow mi away or earthquake make mi fall into e hole or flood water wash mi away or mudslide bury mi alive or terrorists hijack my bus or kidnapped in e middle of nowhere....wahahahss

going genting den go kl hope i'll b able to have a gd time there...pls...let mi have enuf $$ to spend there n pls let mi b able to find stuffs i like....yah i'm vry vry fussy abt e things i buy...n i'm vry picky abt wat i see...no choice mahz...perfectionist...haiez...

but also due to this...i lost my job....now pray hard hard i'll b ablr to find a job immediately after i cum back or else i'll have nth to live on alr...yea i'm tat poor....

tmlo going to buy stuffs....hmmm i'm vexed...how much shuld i bring there....hmmm wat shuld i bring???arrggghhhhssssss,......

i'm going to lose it vry vry soon....sooo fucked up whole day today....stoopid fucking day...made mi so damn pissed off wif evry min n evry secs tats passing by...

1stly i believe i've lost tat job....yeah tats rite lost it evn bfore i evn started....now i've to start looking for a new job again...

2ndly i didn get to see mlb todday personally....rushed hm instead to watch renci...went down to mediacorp but didn dare to go up to them coz i didn knoe them at all....hope they get to see e 2 guys n post up sum of e pics for mlbians....

3rd e bus driver was so great to mi....on e way to mdc i pressed e bell when i reached e stop...n i did it way bfore e bus came to e stop...it evn stop at e traffic light bfore it....but e bus driver forgot to let mi alight n instead let mi down 1 stop later....thanx alot...i knoe i'm fat but its such s scorching hot day i didn expect myself to b sweating like a pig yet ok...in e end wat to do i had to walk all e way back n den to mdc...e stoopid sun made mi swear n cursed evn more n made mi evn madder...

went down bugis after tat finally able to get sum stuffs done...gotten my newspaper articles...going back again soon...

wat made mi real real mad was this bloody indian who sat bhind mi in e bus on my way hm...damn him kept shouting to his fren who was sitting RITE BSIDE HIM!he didn realise he was talking so damn loudly n irritated so many ppl on e bus....evn those sitting at e fron end of e bus turned back to look at him lahz...summore he kept kicking my chair n it made mi real nausea coz of e rocking motion....*burn him in hell* damn it throughout e whole journey he kept changing his sitting position den kept knocking into mi...i glared at him more den 3 times ok but he still didn get e msg or otherwise he's too thickskin to realise how offensive it had been...worse thing happened when i fell aslp in e bus....when i woke up u knoe wat he was doing??he was resting his hand n head on e handlebar bhind mi...so when i lifeted up my head his face was touching my hair...FUCKED now i'm soo damn pissed i dunno wat i wanted to say anymore...

this is juz a stoopid day for mi again...

working at party world ktv at cwp....starting work on mon 19thmarch 1045 am!! pay is pathetic 900/mth only have to work 6days/wk from 11-7pm...=(

nvm i'll take this time to learn new stuffs de....

这个故事呢，是跟两个数字有关的，一个是 0，一个是 1。

数字 0 总是既可怜又孤单，因为它的数字最小，所以没有别的数字愿意跟它做朋友。虽然 0 也觉得自己没有什么份量，但是它仍然很想要有个朋友。于是，它决定自己出发去寻找。

起初，数字 0 遇见了 2 和 3，接着又遇到了其他数字，但是大家都觉得 0 这个数字太小，所以都不肯跟它做朋友，是 0 因此受到很大的挫折。

不过，有个数字和 0 一样有着同样可怜的身世，那就是数字 1。

1 和 0 一样一直在寻找朋友，但是其他的数字却都看不起它，所以 1 也一直交不到朋友。

在一次偶然的机会下，数字 1 遇到了数字 0。

0 和 1 互相邀请对方成为自己的朋友，于是两人很快就成为一对相知相惜，无所不谈的好朋友。

hmmmm sud tot of him again....mayb coz he msged mi yest....hahas didn expect him to remmeber my bday...had a short chat wif him but it really makes mi felt so sweet alr...

hmmm tot of how i fell started to crush on him when i was in pri6...den how i meet him a yr bfore....how i tried to contact him ovr e yrs after we graduated from pri sch n how i confessed to him my feelings but was deeply hurt by his words yrs later.....n how he appeared in my life again when we were both in e same jc again for 2 yrs...

haiez....he's e only guy i've hasd e longest crush on....imagine from pri6 till now....though in btw there were breaks coz gotten into r/s too but still i nvr forgotten abt this particular guy...

hmmm last yr i gave him a present on his bday....yep 2nd time i gave him present le....i tot vry long of wat to get for him lorz....finally gotten him chocs+sweets n self made a box to contain it....n arhs there was a small small cake hidden beneath e chocs....i didn hand it personally to him but my sch e drink stall uncle helped mi pass to him lorz...we were preparing for our alvls during tat period of time n was having study break so no need go back sch evryday lorz....

he thanked mi for e present but it was also after this i finally given up hope on him....n i really got vry upset after e whole thing though nvr really told anybody abt it....i beileved he either gave e whole presnt to sum1 else or he threw it away....coz he didn notice e cake hidden inside....he nvr got to see it.... thoguh he did msg to thank mi but it was for e sweets+chocs....eh chocs+sweets got meaning e kks...i gave it to him coz i wanted his life to b sweet+nice....kinda lame now thinking back....i was disappointed really really disappointed coz i spend alot of effort thinking of wat to get him n how to pass it to him....den i killed alot of cells worrying abt whether he'll xian qi my gift after receiving not....

now i practically given up alot of hopes on r/s....single life is btr for i do not report to anybody abt my actions n my schedule though sumtimes it does get kinda bored n envious of e frens ard mi who're so sweetly in luv wif their other part....but nvm wats mine will eventually b mine...wats not will nvr b no matter how hard i try to force it...hmmmm i luv my frens n my family...hope u guys will luv mi too....=x

hmmmm had great fun e past few days....

14th march
went to watch movie wif a fren....300 tats e show's name....hmmmm its a vry vry nice show n i'll recommend it to all...=D all abt war n e life of a troop of ppl who're not supposed to show their feelings for it consider them to b weak or sort of tat lahz....300 represents e no of ppl who went out to fought e war against more den 100000 soldiers of another ctry...ending vry touching i cried...hmmm seems embarassing sia....=x but arhs e show quite bloody+ disturbing lahz if u all afraid of blood n head being cut off den dun watch....summore got nude scenes eh...not for small kids arhs...

15th march
today was my BDAY....i hadn expected myself to enjoy it as much....but i did!went to party world to sing....yah siao again BUT not as crazy as last time....i was more refined n demure....wahahahsss now 19 le i will TRY to b more mature....

hmmm finally get to see joan's house wahahhahas....her rm much cleaner n spacious n tidier den mine i knoe....hahahas watched sawII hmmmm it is a vry interesting show worz....but i dun think it's for e faintheart....keke coz alot of scenes wif disgusting scenarios but actually i enjoyed e whole show lahz....ahem ahem i'm not a psycho okays i juz enjoy more bloody scenes....tats y 300 is also a nice show too...

received 2 presents this yr only...hahas kelian rite tsk tsk....1 pair of converse shoe+$100 ang bao....hmmm actually not tat bad also lahz...but wat made my day was e well wishes from all e ppl....thanx to u guys...ahem no mentioning of names but u all shuld knoe who u r....=p evn got a few unexpected msgs from unexpected ppl....really brightened up my day alot alot...

this yr i tried sumting stoopid+ unique wors....i didn cut my cake personally but through e ph!hahahs yah lame lahz i noe..mum bought mi bday cake but i was at joan's house den sis called den i juz made my wish through e ph n she helped mi blow out candles n cut e cake...CHOC CAKE my fav.....kekeke soo happy...

today is a happy day n also a guilty day for mi...

guys in uniform simply looks gorgeous n suave...i seem to have develop a thing for guys who wears uniform esp army uni...dunno y also but they juz look sooo 'tempting'...yah i vry pervert lahz blahlahlah...

yep i got into tekong wif joan...1st n last time i'm going there....its a real unique experience...i've got no bros so this time can go in can b considered fortunate.....by e time we went in e soldiers alr finished marching in n alr assembled in e parade square le lorz....hmmm missed e chance to see their march in...but still took sum of e pics of them marching out lahz....

it started pouring vry heavily when they stood in e rain n canot move...so kelians lorz....=x we really needa respect these soldiers who brave e rain n sun to train to protect our country....*SALUTES* to ALL soldiers....

after e talk given by e minister n e marched out e soldiers came back den e guests were allowed onto e parade square to interact wif them....so i also went down lorz...look for fren n also for nic...yep saw nic...he looks real cool in his uniform...but in e end i missed e chance to go to e other company to look for jw...think joan was real pissed off wif tat bahz....SORRY joan...=( coz wanted to take pic wif nic but he was talking to his family den i dun dare go up disturb....hmmm nic seems abit unhappy wif mi eh...mayb coz i asked him to take pic...dunno but i felt real bad....n real sad lorz...seems as though he kena forced to take tat pic wif mi....*sadded* SORRY nic if i evr make u unhappy....

dunno y i seem to alwaz make ppl real pissed wif mi eh....sad...m i really tat bad....nxt time can let mi knoe when i do sumting wrong...i alwaz can sense e displeasure wif mi but sumtimes i cant guess wat i've really done wrong eh....=( sorry to those i'm upsetted bfore....sobsssy cant i seem to grow up...arrrggghhsss.........='(

主唱：陈小春
作曲：周杰伦
作词：施人城

我爱的人
我知道 故事不会太曲折
我总会 遇见一个什么人
陪我过 没有了他的人生
成家立业之类的 等等

他做了 他觉得对的选择
我只好 祝福她真的对了
爱不到 我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我 怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
他心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
他真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱有恨 他的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 他已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 他或她说我们
就像听见 爱情永恒的嘲笑声

他做了 他觉得对的选择
我只好 祝福她真的对了
爱不到 我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我 怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
他心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
他真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱有恨 他的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 他已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 他或她说我们
就像听见 爱情永恒的嘲笑声

每当听见 他或她说我们
就像听见 爱情永恒的嘲笑声


i really really luv this song....e lyrics r great it tells of how i feel...admiring sum1 impossible...coz he does not knoe of my existence...nvm but e taste of falling for sum1 n watching tat person fall in luv wif another is really really painful....this song is also written by jay...GREAT i luv him so much...=D jay is simply talented no 1 can deny tat evn though he seems to b a playboy....but who cares rite...admire him for his talents bahz...

stole this from sw's blog....it's really meaningful so decided to post it up here too....=)

Sometimes, we asked ourselves," WHAT DID WE DO TO DESERVE THIS?"

OR

"WHY MUST GOD LET ALL THESE HAPPENED TO ME?"

Heres the explanation:
A daughter's telling her mom everything that has went wrong in her life.
She probably failed her final exam,
OR
her boyfriend just dumped her for her best friend.
Everything just went wrong.
In times so sad, her mother knows what to do the best. She told her daughter she's going to bake a cake for her so she went to the kitchen to prepare, leaving her daughter attempting to smile.

After preparations,
The mother asked," Sweetheart, do you want to have a piece of cake?"
Daughter:" Sure mom, you know hw much i love to eat cakes."
Mom: " Drink some of this oil now."
Daughter: " WHAT? NO WAY!"
Mom: "how about some raw eggs?"
Daughter: "NO!!!"
Mom: "what about alittle flour?"
Daughter," this is crazy, i will be sick."
Mom responded, "All these uncooked stuffs taste terrible but if you put them together, they will make a delicious cake!"

This mail by my cousin gives me this thought.
We always wonder bout hw awful we had to go through those bad times but we dont realise what these events may bring.
We dont realise they are actually the ones that make us stronger and happier.
They are the raw materials that make our lives a thing of worth and beauty.
Thats the test of living.

yeah nic's POP(paasing out parade) is tmlo!!jw+mel+so many others also tmlo POP le....i wanna go eh.....jw got 1 tic for mi alr but it seems weird for a gal to go alone to a place filled wif sooooo many guys n thier family members there see them march pass+ see e grad ceremony sia....summmore jw+joan say it will b diff to find nic coz all e guys wud b looking soo similar lahz....
BUT I REALLY WANNA GO EH......=( so long nvr see nic alr...missing him lots sia....ahem ahem yah yah he got gf alr le....hahahas

past 2 days went e 2 open house...hmmm llike e atmosphere in ntu btr....tchers seems more humourous n place seems more relax feeling....nus give mi e feel tat ppl there r more serious(esp studies lorz) n lecturers r boring.....=x

staying in a hostel seems real fun...e students told us abt all e activities they have participated in during their stay at e hostel....sooo fun lahz....sooo cute summore...hahahs mayb can meet shuai shuai e seniors eh....kekeke but its real ex!total amt seems to add up to ard 2000 for 1 sem....=(

nursing seems real fun!e uniform is so cool lahz!*salute* to all nurses out there.....saw their modules...OMGGG 1st yr have to study sooo much theories lehz....soo much memorisation to do....seems tough eh....n only nus has nursing course....intake is only 50 students!!!sobss....business course is abt 650 students bahz but e whole nus hall was filled till sooo scary lahz....alot of shuai ge in tat course....wahahhass

oh yah...vry vry qi ren lahz.....do i really look like small small child??i go to both open houses i have ppl handling mi balloons lahz....give mi alr i let go another cum n give mi again....=x so sad lahz....do i really look soo small....sobss

yeah...caiyu gave us treat at pasta on st....wahs 1st time eh....LOL pasta tasted ok initially but after tat cudn eat it anymore....not tat its not nice but u knoe how creamy sauce taste like rite...hahahas choc moose taste HEAVENLY....omggosh...so much btr den e tiramisu.....hmmm i missing all e sweet food le....past 2 days vry gd worz...ate vry little....esp sat!only ate 1 plate of pasta +1 banana+1 choc moose for e whole day from morn 8 to nite 3+ eh....soo happy lahz....yest ate more sia...1 yong tau foo soup only +2 icecream(is healthy type)+ few pineapple tarts....kekeke today ate 2 bowls of porridge...yeah i'm going to go thin soon....=DD

joan say accupuncture can help to slim down eh summore its cheap....hmmm wanna go try eh but arhs she told mi will get bruises all ovr....esp e place where they inserted e needles...hmmm i'm determined...by hook or by crrok also will have to slim down!!no pain n gain rite....this time e pain will make sure i dun gain anymore weight...=)kekeke

yest went IT fair....last day so shitty lahz....i bought my SD card le....so much cheaper lahz....outside sell 100++ there only selling at 65bucks....happy happy....shuld have bought 2 instead worz..hmmm =x alot of stuffs....alot of ppl also lahz...sooo squeezy lahz make mi feel so fed up.....met my ex worz....joan say he vry shuai...hahas izit?ok lorz....keke sians sia....

outing at vivo...walk till toes hurt...only enjoyed myself at candy empire oogling at those sexy packaged chocs n tidbits...vivo is huge but shops not much variations from those in town...

saw cheng shu chen+ song yi fei filming at vivo today took sum pics will upload when i'm not lazy..yifei is tall n vry skinny....envy her shen cai lorz....

met my dad in e nite...discuss abt my admission stuffs...
mi:shuld i retake or go uni?
dad:can go uni?
mi:yes but they'll consider my application last coz my result is e bottom few...
dad:sign up for both retake n at e same time try for uni...
mi:but i dun think i'll b able to get e course i wan esp if alot of ppl were to fight for e place wif mi...
dad:den take e course few ppl apply for....try to get in can alr...it doesn matter if u like e course or not study n get urself a degree can alr...
sis:yah vry few ppl will go for their dreams...see i wanna study dancing but also not possible to do so rite...i dun like business but i'm going to take it when i go in uni nxt time also mahz...alot of ppl also study sumting they dun like but wat to do its for e cert n coz of e society...
mi:but if u were to take up e course u dun like u wun have e determination to cont staudying rite...
dad:see ur 二姐 e course she like cant get in she also took up e course she dun like but still completed it anyway...
mi:quiet all e way
sis:wat u wanna do
mi:dunno
sis:u wanna retake izit?
mi:quiet
sis+dad:juz go sign up for any course u can go in uni e n at e same time apply for retake n check e info for both....best is can go uni otherwise den no choice u have to retake lahz...dun listen to wat ur fren say to u...u have to make ur stand clear n firm otherwise if u're fickle u wun get anything done...
dad:done den lets go

great conversation rite...thanx alot...e society seems so cruel...i feel so sians n so bad now....this conversation have disheartened mi evn more....

hmmm guess wat.....i saw shuan chen today at amk hub...dunno who's tat??e holland v e 'xiao xin' lahz...hahahs...ahem ahem

HE IS SHUAI

wahahahss....but i had alwaz tot he was taller den wat i saw today eh...nvm he looks so man lar....he opened a shop called 'monsoon eyewear' there n i believe he was there looking for another shop to lease bahz...

went amk wif joan again to slack...kaow eh really nth to do sia den went to mac....she studied her theory test while i started on my project....now dunno where to start from...only collected sum articles sia...haiez...dunno wat i wanna do too...

knoe wat...e 2 of us hid inside 1 of mac's toilet cubicle n took pics inside lahz....weird rite but we still did it out of boredom n also coz we dun wan ppl to see us wif those stoopid poses....十连拍 ehs u dare do it in public mahz...but e most embarassing thing was tat when we finish taking pic n wanted to cum out from e cubicle there was alot of ppl outside waiting for available cubicle....we hesitated for vry long bfore deciding to get out n run out of e toilet....hahahas i was e last to exit n when i did e aunty look at mi wif those VRY VRY VRY BIG 0_0 of hers n stare at mi as though....ahem ahem u knoe wat le rite....hahahasss

习惯就好啦....i'm his kinda person lorz...go out wif mi vry xia suay 1...kekeke....

sians iweekly only got sam+weqi e pics....no have nic...i'm starting to miss nic alr lorz...MIA for so long sia....yah yah coz of e NS thing lorz...nvm nvm...whahahss...i wanna go see e BMT grad ceremony!!!but it seems each person only 2 tics eh...haiez sad sad....

127 日----KangTa n Vanness

不知不觉 已经那么久
我待在这 没有你的冰河期中
即使回忆 不断在重播
已经冻结的爱 也不会在暖和
把我很好 说得从容 心就越必须 言不由衷
我犹豫着 还要不要
承认我放不开手

127日的分手 就有127颗心在痛
一天一点 让后悔教会
我这么能够 忽略你感受
你用多少眼泪 才找到离开我的理由
也许一直容忍的 都是你
因为温柔而为我 犯下的错

眼中只有你 美丽身影
耳朵只授寻 所有关于 你的消息
就算是我已经往前走
我也徘徊在 所有美好往事左右
我的心 已死好久 它失去了 生存的理由
就在你不再爱我了
那一天 停止跳动

127日的分手 就有127颗心在痛
一天一点 让后悔教会
我这么能够 忽略你感受
你用多少眼泪 才找到离开我的理由
也许一直容忍的 都是你
因为温柔而为我 犯下的错

Damn baby how we end up here
You know it's funny
I just miss you so much
I still remember holding you kissing you
I wish I could just see you right now lying in my arms
Maybe I'm waiting for you
Please just come back to me
I love you

127日的分手 留下一个好想你的我
一天一年 让时间证明
忘记你是我 做的假动作
我用了多少寂寞了解 你离开的理由
我没有能挽回你的 权利
除非你能了解我 心有多痛

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this song is sooo great i luv it soo much...yah its quite an old song le lahz but e mv made mi wanna cry evrytime i watch it...sooo touching...haiez...

i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair
i wanna cut hair

but i have no idea wat style to try...siansss....

i've caught it...e bug knocked on my door n i acc opened it for him....but no i dun have fever...n i think i injured my elbow e bone....it kinda hurt badly esp when i touched it....but i dun remember banging against anything eh...weirds...haiez

i wanna go out....feel so sians now tat i'm not working idling at hm evry single day....played mahjong wif my mum+sis+uncle....lost few $$ sia....haiez....my hands r itching to play again....nth to do at all...

saw my sis bf today...hmmm he looks ok lahz....shuai is shuai but hmmm mayb not my type of shuai bahz....i find *ahem* much cuter ehs...wahahahasss...

argghhsss hope to b able to find a job soon sia.....haiez hope i'll b able to get tics to e BMT grad ceremony sia....=x

gotten result...btr den i expected yep shuld b able to get in uni if e course i applying has few applicants...but still feel sad terribly down...regrets n more regrets fill up inside mi....

y m i such an idiot....evn he got much btr results den mi lahz...AAB shulb i now blame him or blame myself for my own stoopidity....i ruined my own life yeah.....yah i knoe its too late for regrets for time canot b turned back again...realy got e urge to tear off tat stoopid cert...

i was e 1st on e list in class...when i went up to my tcher i alr caught a glimpse of my result.....all Cs...this is e bad thing of being e 1st on e register....evryting also i kena 1st....

haiez....shuld i retake or shuld i move on to apply for uni....they've encouraged mi not to retake my exams...it's not e result tat saddens mi...it's e fact tat i've gotten such a grade due to my slackiness n due to all e stoopid things i've allowed myself to get into tat makes mi sooo angry wif myself....understand now??stop using other ppl's result to compare wif mine...i understand wat u're trying to do but it juz angers mi evn more for it makes mi feel u dun understand mi enuff...

if i really m able to get btr results from retaking e exams y do u have to say i'm wasting my time ehs?i believe i cud have done it den y do u have to keep telling mi results isn evryting n make it seems as though i'm really those kind who go ard to boast abt my results if i've gotten btr grades ehs....i juz wanted to prove to myself tat i can do btr...its not wat u think it is okay...arrrgghhsss to tell e truth wat u said really angers mi so much i really felt so terribly bad evn more u knoe...i dunno wat to say so i remained quiet...dun keep thinking tat i'm disappointed in e results can not....n stop using other ppl's results to compare wif mine...how wud u have felt if u've gotten e result i've gotten??so wat if i'm able to get into uni...yah i've high expectations of myself den?so??

e reason for retaking is so tat i dun wanna look back at my results n regret evn more abt it okay!this is e worse result i've evr gotten in my whole life....so how do u think i'd have felt...so wat if i will b able to do well in uni....if i were to look back at my own result i'll only b reminded of my own stoopidity n not of how i was able to move on ok...haiez forget it....my thinkings r childish alrite..

thanx anyway to evrybody sorry i was juz not feeling gd...

sumting vry terrible happened....yep heard from fren e arhs dun wanna name e person....actually it did shock mi when i heard abt it coz i tot this kinda stuffs happen more in dramas lor...now it actually happened to ppl who're near mi...it kinda scare mi a little...

A's daddy is quite a violent person...he does throw punches on his wife n alwaz scolds her....recentlyhe evn locked out his daughter n told her to ask her mum to go back hm bfore he'd allow her into e house....in e end she had to find sum place else to spend e nite ovr at...

yep hold on....there's still more to cum....

yest i heard from my fren tat daddy attacked mummy wif a sharp tool...yah forgot whether it was a scissors of knife or watevr lahz i only knoe it is sharp....managed to reach for e back of her neck e 1st time...den e tool pierced through her palm e 2nd time he attacked coz she tried to protect her neck....yes PIERCED THROUGH HER PALM!!!tat is disgusting i tell u....to him it is hprrifying...i really cant imagine e pain she felt when e thing went through it....i felt so sorry for her...

now they're all under police protection....n daddy turn himself in juz this evening...actually i find this whole thing vry unbelievable lahz...n it seems a bit errie to mi....

actually i quite admire e mum for being able to stand her husband's berates for so many yrs.....i'm not a patient person i believe i wun have e ability to stand ppl hitting mi...i knoe i'll retaliate evn if i'm not able to win e fight....yeah may i'm really attitude like wat he said...i'll forevr remember wat he said abt mi....nvr evr forget it...oh shucks y m i alwaz reminded abt tat stoopid bastard....sianss...i dun like men who hits women....yah guys r of stronger build den most gals ok...tat evrybody also knoes....tats y u ppl shuldn take it out on us....wanna vent ur anger go look for sum1 ur size...

hmmm is it true tat aftre 2 person really gets married probs starts to surface?how come ppl still remains tgt evn when they cant stand each other's char?is it really true love tat evrybody have to adapt to their other part's weakness n compromise wif it...
wats true love actually....how come it seems so diff to actually find a person who'll really luv u as much as u luv him....

if 1 day u fell in luv eif sum1 who's alr attached wud u atually fight for ur own happiness despite e fact tat u're breaking a couple up....hmmm it does seems cruel....is it true tat ppl will do anything for luv....evn sacrificing their dignity....is it truly worth it??y izit tat these ppl who breaks up others didn think of e pain they've inflicted upon those who're tgt in e 1st place....how wud they have felt if it were their relationship which have been broken up by others....y cant ppl think bfore acting...yah i'm 1 of e retard who dun think properly....n i've really truly regretted alot of stuffs tat i've done...but NO!i'll nvr evr break up sum1 no matter how much i do luv tat person....i hope e ppl ard mi wun go do it tooo...it's really a vry vry evil ting to do.....

haiez now i really m confused abt wat i'm thinking.....dunno wat e heck i'm talking abt...i'm truly confused abt life....wat r we here for?to go through e diff stages of obstacles?so wat if we've learn our lessons....e world has bcum such a place where many only care for themselves....many have regarded those ard them as foe n competitors....wat do we still have to do?luv seems to b only a masks pp put on....is there really compassion behind e masks they hide in??

hmmm tmlo's e day....i'm getting it back alr....mixture of feelings...i guess its not worries nor m i scared....instead i feel abit numb+disappointment...i guess it'll b worser den i have tot...hmmm juz hope i wun embarass mself by crying like shit bahz....

haiez i have nth to say.....take cares all....nites.....

today they came to my house for mahjong session agains....yeah linghui cancelled away mahjong session at her house last min but in e end joan managed to find mahjong set...play whole afternoon...nth much to say....oooohh xj today learnt how to play mahjong+cards seh hahahas passed all her practical tests....*clap clap*

sians sia fingers still haven manage to heal....now my fingers seems vry thin lahz....do things vry diff sia have to b careful not to peel off evn more layers of it....

had wanted to go running bfore meeting e few of them e....but it rained through e whole nite till this afternoon...i woke up early also no use lorz in e end went to clean up my rm instead hahas....sians i'm gonna bcum a big fat piggy alr lahz....I DUN WANS.....i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan..........

haiez my hair getting from bad to worse alr lahz....now i find myself getting more n more ugly le ehs....how...wat to do....sians...shuld i cut off my hair....i dun really dare to cut it short like jas e...but i'm quite tired of this hairstyle feel like trying out other styles...but evrytime i go down e salon n ask them to decide for mi they themselves also cant make e decision sias....how???i dunno wat kinda hair m i suited for....=x how m i supposed to knoe it....=xx