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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Bloodstone (Pisces)
You like: Soppy movies, beautiful sunsets, log fires and cosy celebrations like Christmas.

You dislike: Excessive swearing, smelly armpits and people who trample all over u.

You're best at: Making decisions by liste ning to ur heart - not ur head - and being able to pick up negative vibes as soon as u walk into a room.

Deep down: U are a dreamer, not a planner. Ur world would be perfect if everybody else took care of the details 'n' u were left to sit under a tree and write books or something.

Your career: Art curator, landscape designer, translator or writer.

Fashion: You have a talent for making even the dowdiest clothes look good. You can take this too far though, and look too Scruffy at times. Loose, floaty clothes are your favourite.

As a mate: U get lost in ur own thoughts sometimes, which they find frustrating, but mates like ur easygoing nature. Never one to rock the boat, u like to go with the flow and don't mind changing ur plans to suit the crowd.

As a girlfriend: U are dreamy and romantic. Living in ur own little world, u love staring into ur boyf's eyes without saying a word. Soft as butter, he'll love how sentimental u are and finds u plain adorable.

If your boyf's a Pisces: A bit of a gentle giant, these types are artistic and see u as their creative inspiration. Don't be surprised if he dedicates a poem, computer game, tree or movie to u. He smothers u with sweet words 'n' hugs and really believes u are his beautiful princess.

Celebrity Pisceans
Drew Barrymore (22/2/75), Melinda Messenger (23/2/71), Ronan Keating (3/3/77), Patsy Kensit (4/3/68), Stephen Gately (17/3/76), Bruce Willis (19/3/55)

~ { 22:50 }
marssh

hmmmm is it e weather or m i starting to fall sick nows.....feeling cold on a bright sunny afternoon....maybe its coz i'm freezing in my heart tats y i cant feel any warmth.....i'm feeling damn terrible.....terribly down n out....i'm really feeling vry depressed nows.....sumbody lend mi a shoulder to cry on bahz....

yest proved to be a vry damn day for mi.....quarrels early in e morn mayb i shuldn have ask den it wudn have started....sandals broke on e way to meet e og....change of venue w'o knowing wasted alot of money on cab fares....nites went to wait for him fang gong but he sat on e bench nxt to mi w/o seeing mi there....it upsets mi so much decieded to wait for him a hm...in e end he went out wif frn so i went off when cedric ask mi out for a drink.....quarrels again in e nites n i knoe this time it is my fault....

maybe i overreacted over tat matter but i still dun feel gd abt it nows....i guess no gals like their guys to get too close to any gals no matter wat bahz....n for mi i guess i'm not a vry da fang gal who can accept such things bahz....though sumtimes i may pretend to be nonchalant abt wat u're doing but pls knoe deep down its kinda uneasy to knoe gals r so attracted to u....=X

i'm not sumone who's pretty nor intelligent....nor do i have a terrific figure or knoe how to cook or do any housework......tats y i find it insecure as i have nth to mske u stay by my side.....=(

sorrys if i've evr said anything tat upsetted u or done anything wrong to make u unhappy....cheer up kkk....i love u dar!!

sch's starting nxt wk....i'm feeling evn more worse....i'm so afraid i wun b able to cope....going to have to clean up my hall rm soon n have to move in le....haiez i guess i'll miss mmy boy evn more after this....nobody to hug mi to slp in e nites....giving mi e warmth i need in e cold cold nites....really do hope we'll be able to spend more time tgt but i guess it will be difficult....haiez...need sum1 to talk to....but where n how do i start....

~ { 14:35 }
marssh

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

yeah back from camp!!!hmmm overall it was still alright....jzu tat i hadn got enuf slp at all!!!till now still haven finish replenishing my slp yet tsk tsk......5days met alot of new frens....gals n guys most seems frendly....sum seems weird....n i do mean STRANGE!!!

alot of activities....from amazing race to sentosa trip to camp fires n fright nite!!!i was scared out till i cried u knoe.....i kena grabbed leg twice yahs!!!!den after tat sum gal in white makeup came to scare mi...she was so damn scary i cried evn harder.....so xia suay....=( evryday eat cai fan till i now also scare le....=.= dun ask mi eat it for e nxt few wks anyone!!!

been to e camp i started missing alot of ppl....my family n my gals...n of coz i missed my dear alots.....=X but today's misunderstanding seem to made both of us upset....sorrys dar...........=( haiez dunno for wat reason i'm starting to love this guy more le...*shy* haiez.....but how cum e feeling btw us seems diff from wat we were in e past....it makes mi feel kinda sadded alr....

went watch transformer for e 2nd time.....hmmm dunno y i'm still in luv wif bumbblebee!!!so touching.....

~ { 00:07 }
marssh

Sunday, July 15, 2007

i'm sorrys if i've cause any hurrt in any way....regrets are of no use anymore....took e rest of e day off couldn continue working with this kinda mood....i guess i deserved it for i let go of my own happiness this time round so i cant blame anybody.....

something is happenign to mi n i dunno wat;s wrong....i'm going off tmlo for the camp n i guess it will simply be the worse week of my life....no mood to pack up....damn it....

heaven seems to be playing a huge joke on me this time....hahas everything was fine till i went to destroy it myself.....i smashed my own heart alr n it seems beyond repair nows...

i guess i'm gonna miss e hugs n kisses i received at nites.....e warmth i get when i feel cold.....e long talks into e wee hours.....e songs u sang for mii......e way u made mi smile....e way u made fun of mi....n noodles u made for mi....

i dunno wat i myself want nows...i m simply confused of myself....i want u n i need u but i'm afraid of being with u....why?i dunno...

~ { 17:53 }
marssh

Friday, July 13, 2007

3 more days....dun feel like going....i thiink i might get mood swing agains....what am i supposed to do?

i need a dress...
i need to find a bag
i need to pack
i need to slap myself n make myself wake up!!!

arrgghhss gals anybody can lend mi dress mahz??dress dress dress!!!

i'm sad
i'm depressed

whom m i supposed to trust now?can i still do that?i cant even trust myself now...coz i seem to keep lying to myself....hahahas

i am a simple girl...i want a simple life....

~ { 16:28 }
marssh

Monday, July 09, 2007

yest=joan's bday....ate till nearly stuffed from all e food....kfc+thai restaurant....tsk tsk i ate e most worz tats y feeling bloated from it....but got hungry not soon later alr tsk tsk....though only met up to eat n eat n eat again yest hope u did enjoy ur day yahs miss JOAN finally 19 now arhs....i'm going 20 ya knoe!!!lalala jialats old-ing laio le.....sorrys no proper present for u worz but nvm thurs let u go choose but pls arhs dun later make mi go broke i tell ya or u'll have to take cares of mi alr which i knoe u wun want so think carefully bfore u buy anything hohoho!!!e cake is NICE!!!!nai you dan gao but we ate till damn er xin sia....tsk tsk fingers digging yucksks but nvm lahz shows how loving we are woahs woahs1!!!hhehe

today went army markte!!wanted get stuffs for e camp but in e ene....only got a few pieces of ziplocks whahahahahs!!!!but e food nice nice....kekeke heng didn ate as much as last nite otherwise confirm needa go diet le lhaz.....hmmm mummy bought chocs from canada tastesso damn SHIZOK inside dunno got wat shit nice sia!!!not too sweet so wun get too sick of it....but e choc is thick=heavenly sia....i'm feeling e sin alr omggossh....=p

yeahs!!!!finally gotten their album....sooo happy yahs yahs waited for 7mths for it alr....i particularly love track 5!!!sooo shiok....contained quite a no of slow songs sia didn really expect tat but overall still nice nice!!!=DD heess love u guys sia!!auto session auto session yeahs!!!

dun worry gals i'll love myself e....will zi ai e....=) i knoe wat i shuld do alr....

~ { 23:33 }
marssh

Saturday, July 07, 2007

everything seems changed....nothing seems e same anymores....what should i say.....i dont seem myselg anymores....what should i do.....haiez.....life is really very complicated....e older u grow e more problems u're going to face....how much i wish to go back to e time when i'm loved n pampered...by anyone out there....hahas but it seems impossible....i'm a fortunate girl i know that myself....but i dont feel happy....because whatever i have doesn seem to be whatever i want to have....

it seems all my 19 years of life have been wasted on nothing.....i have gained only book knowledge n it seems real pathetic....until recently when i have started stepping into e working society that i have realised evrything is so fake out in that world....i dont understand why....maybe i've been too pampered till i've been living in my own world for too long....

how nice would it be if i'm able to suddenly become so damn smart n stop believing in what everybody says....now i dont know what i can believe n what it is that i cant anymores.....e people around me seems to be not truthful to me n it kinda makes me feel e painn....i've always feel that being honest is a form of respect for others....especially for ur loved ones....1 lie requires 10 lies to cover it up so whatever for??sometimes u have to really think properly before u carry out ur actions....i hate that feeling.....of having to believe it is e truth when i know it isn really so....

i really need a hug....a comforting hug not given out of pity or cause i want it....i had hope to be held on because i'm being cared n loved by that person in particular....but is it possible.....i dont want to hold on to something that will never belong to me in e end....regardless of whether it is in a relationship or a friendship or anything else....if e person doesn truly want to be with me i guess theres no point hanging on like that bahz....i dont want to be mentally torturred like this bahz.....

hahahas HAPPY BDAY JOAN.....i finally got 1 person's bday corect already....i promise i'll try very very hard to remember everybody's bday from todya onwards sorry to those i've forgotten i really didn do it on purpose e....=XX

~ { 23:20 }
marssh

Friday, July 06, 2007



someone introduced this song to me....n i found this mv very cute...i like it quite lots....=DD

~ { 16:56 }
marssh

hmmmpf its going to be a busy busy month for me le....sch having orientation camp soon haiez.....i'm gonna miss sum1 ard....=(( i'm worried n i'm scare...i knoe sumting is bound to happen while i'm gone but i dunno wat it will be....wat to do i dunno....

found part-time job too....going to work for popular 1hr5bucks pathetic rites nvm bahz take it as passing time lorz....having some income rolling in doesn sound too bad either but working hrs r jialat....10am-10pm i might die from it....heng e boss not vry fierce vry gd sia juz now evnn send e uniform all e way to my house wahahahs but hope my supervsor in charge wudn be sum mean old lady....=(( everybody can cum visit mi yahs at sengkang hohoho!!

i'm sick le lahz....throat hurts esp bad from yest e k session....jialat feeling sore dry coughs *arrggkk pui* nth cums out....=.= i'm getting fat le....e 2kg came back find mi yahs i;m so sadded.....now seems to be able to eat more den last time le scary...i dun want!!i scare.....=XX

~ { 15:52 }
marssh

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光……

　　可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。


　　一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗”


　　天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。


　　幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。


　　轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。


　　蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。
　　這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。


　　第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。


　　上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。
　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。


　　上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”

有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

~ { 02:08 }
marssh

Monday, July 02, 2007

i'm sick.....stoopid....stomach hurts like hell now i'm hating this....vomit summore arrrggghshs....jialat...summore i'm poor now....stoopid stoopid....n i'm pissed now...arrrggghhhsss!!!!stoopid....

yest went wif lingg+hui go pub....lingg drink until look like tomato sia tsk tsk....k lahz we thurs go kbox lahz hahahas.....=XX but arhs u all sing louder eh.....otherwise so soft i cant hear nahz.....lolol

~ { 23:22 }
marssh