hmmm guess now i'll be able to blog in peace le....hahahas now guess i dun needa really be mindful of what i m going to write le bahz....been a tiring week....ever since sch started, nt seems to have been smooth sailing...

cudn get e extra modules i wanted to take nor did i manage to join e ccas i wanna be in.....nows dunno wat exactly i want in life alr...to cont staying in hall need to earn 13pts...but now if i manage to bcum a ogl i will only be able to get abt 5 pts....damn it guess nxt yr will have to wake up early to go to sch le sia haahs...

past few days kept quarreling wif my boi....sumtimes i really hate electronic devices...it kinda cause some sort of misunderstandings to arise out of e blue....haiez is it really true that all ppl cant be trusted in this world?help mi....help mi start thinking more deeply....i realised my mindset seems too shallow...=(( help mi be more able to express myself arrrggghhhss......

actually at present i m still wondering...have i reallly made e wrong choice?taken e wrong step?shuld i simply give up everything....its true i do feel for him,alots.....but y do i have e kinda feelign tat it doesn really matter whether i exist in his life or not....hahahas he always say its bcoz i thnink too much....whether this is true or not i dunno....i cant seeems to guess whas on his mind alwaz...

its been 4mths alr....but to mi it seems as though a vry long time....in this 4 mths alot of stuffs have since happened....i've shed alot of tears...be it for good or for bad reasons.....everytime whenevr i m ready to end evryting, my heart will start to have mixed feelings again after some times....yahs i knoe i'm vry contradicitng.....i'd wanted him to be e guy..e last guy in my life...but can he be e one actually i dun really think so....not coz of e differences in us be it education level or wat....hahahs i aint pretty with a bad figure n i can be vry stoopid sumtiems with a bad temper....its true juz tat sum of u haven seen it only....hahahs so if a sweeter gal were to appear i guess !!bbooom!! it'll be over for us le...LOLOL do he really love mi or nots...or m i just one of his many flings...

i hadn dare tell him....whenever any gals msg or contact him it makes mi feel vry vry uncomfortable in e heart.....evn though he tried comforting mi saying they are all his frens but i dun think any gals wud be able to take it if ur bf were to be so close to their gal friends rite....evn if it is considered to be a jk i dun think a guy shuld be doing this bahz....

i'm actually feeling vry uneasy abt his guan xi wif his ex....they once shared a r/s n it aint a short one....evn though they had broken up but i knoe they are still in contact vry frequently....both say they are sharing a pure frenship for now...but u confirm this frenship wun rekindle ur feelings for each other mahz.....ive been quite vexed abt this....u've given up on mi for a few times coz of her....can u be real sure it wudn happen again mahz.....how sure can u be of it den....u've said bfore she knoes e way u handle things n also understand u...if tats e case u sure ur feelings for her wudn cum back again....haiez

heys heys dun worry i'm juz trying to vent my frustration in writing....i'm really ok behind e screen hahas so u guys dun need console mi....give mi a gd nice warm hug nxt time if u want to make mi feel btr...hahas

不管昨天你对我说过了什么
今天的我还是依然依然的沉默
两个人 生气着
谈着谁先舍不得
你别这样来试探我们的缘分
不管昨天我对你说过了什么
今天的你还是依然依然的自我
问这要到什么时候
才会觉得无法忍受
难道这样才能证明爱得有多深
所以爱我几分
这是你不停的疑问
你的心里对我有多认真
何必执着在我的部分
所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有得问

不管昨天我对你说过了什么
今天的你还是依然依然的自我
问这要到什么时候
才会觉得无法忍受
难道这样才能证明爱得有多深
所以爱有几分
这是你不停的疑问
你的心里对我有多认真
何必执着在我的部分
所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有得问
最后值不值得还失去了有什么好真
就在转身之后
我的不舍有多么的真
所以爱有几分
这是你不停的疑问
你的心里对我有多认真
何必执着在我的部分
所以爱有几分
这是你永远的疑问
只有最后一切才有得问
只有最后一切才有定论☆

beBo cafe-18/08/07

beBo cafe-18/08/07

hmmmmmmm back....e gals complaining my blog like essay writing so this time cut short....dun worryd no more reading stories le....but i no habve photos upload eh eh...=( nobody wana take pics wif mi so sadded......

sch's still fine...didn manage to add anymore subs into m free slot so now=quite free....5days wk hate it!!still haven knoe any1 from my hall so life's still sians...promise myself will try not to skip lessons le...i'm going to be a gd gal le...trying to find part time jobs to kill my time+earn more money nows=qiong guang dan i need alot alot of monies now....

wkends was working at popular roadshow at whitesands den at amk hub...cuming wk might be working at cwp...hmmm maybe nots...upcoming pc roadshow at end or e mth....selling student notesbooks interested can go down see see look look....but mi chocs when u guys go too!!=p meeting my gfs cuming wk for our chalets!!yeahs...okok i'll bring cam n take pics...=)) lingg dun forget our liquor hohoho

i'm nows in e mood for a drink....pissed by wat i dunno mood swing+tiredness.....sumtimtes really hate this kinda life....maybe if i hadn started working at that pub life wud have been btr....darn...tired from all e travelling tired of being left alone n tired from all e stoopid thoughts....simply 1 word=tired

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!!!!!!

but this yr abit sadded sia....no go watch fireworks.....i miss e steamboats....=(( hope it wudn be tat bad nxt yr too....i think i really needed sit down n plan my schedule dia....i miss my boi...=XX

Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. (no tag backs!)




1. i like to scare myself but i am quite afraid of ghost=.=.
2. i need to have something to hug when i m sleeping n usually its difficult to survive wif only 1 pillow but i dun like bolsters.
3. I like to eat chocs
4. I HATE people lying to me..(say e truth ppl evn if sumtimes it might not b nice but at least it wun make others doubt ur words in future...wats wif all e lies i really dun get it...dont lie to ur loved ones coz e truth will alwaz leak n it breaks their heart when they learn abt tat)
5. I am hairy(wahahahas)
6. I am lazy n sleeping n slacking is my hobby
7. I laugh alot...sometimes when i'm upset i will still laugh n i'll laugh till i cry wahahahahas
8. i love babies but i dont like grown up children
9. i talk alot of crap lang n i sutime dun think bfopr i speak=all rubbish
10. i alwaz feeel like shitting but i seem to hve constipation....=X
People tag by me :
muiling
shan
peg
denise
suwen
jasmine
luyi (oooops more den 6)=P

today has been a bad day.....i guess it has greatly affected my feelings....my cramps got abit bad painkillers didn help....hot water didn help...still needa work...standing from 10-10....rest didn help too....back pain added insult to my mood...evrything is simply so damn fucked up...i needed someone there by my side....yet...

msgs seems short n it made me didn want to say anything much....e person who provided e comfort wasn e person i had expected....small inexpensive gift but it did cheer mi up aliitle....whole trip home was saddening....i was thinking maybe i m unimportant bahz....mood gotten evn more worse when i reached hm...evn more problems await....dun understand how come they seems never ending....

guess i'm gonna lose slp again today bahz....haiez but i'm really really very tired....tired coz of all e stuffs that happened....not just tnite....but throughout e whole week....guess dont be bothered helps more bahz....our r/s seems abit tensed....is it really e case?i know i want you...yet i dont know whether i should continue holding on to u or not.....

hmmmm 3 more days n off i am to starting a new phrase in my life....scared yet i'm left without much choice....i guess i'll just have to make sure i stay on for the whole 4 years n dont get kick out of school....college of engineering=??? dont know what i want for my future....
.mechanical emgineering
.electrical n electronics engineering
.civil engineering
.environmental engineerign

if only i've done better for my alevels then i wouldn have needeed to be here freding over all this....haiez guess its simply too late for regrets anyways....if really i am not able to take it for the first year i guess i've have to discuss with my dad and hopes he will allow me to go to poly to take up occupational therapy already sia....=((

hmmm till now still haven pack my stuffs into my hall....=XX guess i should start already but i'm working for the next 2 days!!!shits sai....timetable quite okay but guess it'll be worse if i start taking on ccas n electives modules....arrrggghhss i guess it should be better this way....hahahas cause i believe it'll help me to get over some matters bahz....lol

meet up with one of my girlfriend on wed night for a small chat....i guess after that i did feel alittle better....hope i didn spoil your day with all my stuffs and thankx for being willing to pei me that night....trying to take her advice in being more kan kai n trying my very best to live my everyday more happily....hope the next time we meet i'll be more raidant n you too smiles =))....in the past i know the actions i've committed and the choices that i've made have sort of dui bu qi you but still i hope we'll become one of the bestest friends one day....=) and i want to let you know you're quite wrong to say that he doesn really listen when you talk...cause he did!hahas

i guess in life you've to really work hard to obtain the stuffs you want the most but still not everything goes on the way you want it to be....if everything were to be so smooth sailing i guess it wouldn be called life anymores....everybody have to go through a certain patch in life no matter whether its a rough obstacle or a happy moment we still cannot turn our backs on our problems or else it will accumulate to become a snowball reaction bahz....hahhas crappy posts lalala i'm still feeling down nows i guess....

maybe i shouldn even be bothered and maybe i should simply give up....but i'm trying to hang on...for some reasons...which i'm not very sure what it is nows anymore....i hope i hadn made the wrong decision in hanging on like that though i've been scolded alot of times for doing so hahas....if it was really something i shouldn do then take it as a lesson learnt and never commit the same mistake bahz....no wrong doings=wouldn be able to know what's truly right anyways....i'm still living in confusion i guess....mind seeems to be churning alot of thoughts but i cant seem to precess what they are.....i guess by the time these pieces are fixed togetheri'll get the answer i want already....so i'm hoping my brain can start to work faster and for me to stop being a retard and grow up nows!!!hahahahahahas

hmmmm it's been a long time since my posts have been so long lolol should end here le...take cares all!!n remember to smiles!!!cause one's emotions will be able to affect those around you so no matter how terribly upset you are complain to those around you for awhile but never let it drag on because they'll feel more awkward and upset if you do that....wahahahas