1st quarrel....dunno wat e hell his fren told him it make him came to qn mi n now belive we'll both need time out alr.....i think his fren say i've two-timing him all this while n he seems to actually believe it....does it mean gals working my type of line have to b deem as such ppl....it doesn really make sense....it kinda make mi feel as though i'm so cheap n such a slut can....it makes mi feel so insulted....

i seem to have made alot of wrong steps in my life....for dunno wat reason i feel hurt...vry vry unhappy today....today shuld b a drunk day for mi...

16th april 2007 620am a date to remember

i'm attached yet again....this time dunno wat i got myself into....hope it wun b so complicated....hope evryting goes on well....

he's gd to mi but it seems i treat him more like a vry vry vry gd n close fren instead of a bf....e feeling is only a 'like' but not 'love' dunno y but i feel loved.....

hmmm back to blog.....alot happened worz....lalala guess wat guess wat....i saw pss zhang lesheng n john!!woahs didn knoe both of them smoke e worz....anyways had a small chat wif lesheng last nite n he's a vry frrendly guy worz....initially tot it was juz sum1 who LOOKS like him but didn knoe it was him himself hahahas vry confusing rite kekek....exchange no too...=p e thing tat pissed mi off was tat i wanted to hear lesheng sing e lahz!!he asked for e song 'ni bu zai' by lee hom lorz but dunno which idiot kept deleting my song!den he wasn able to sing it...arrgghhhsss den when they were able to leave a guy from e nxt table passed lesheng n john e mic n asked them to sing e song bfore leaving lorz.....omg their voice is so explosive lahz....hmmmm it was nice....=DD

ok now tell u guys....mlb ep got 6 songs!!1 of which is written by lesheng....hmmm mlb themselves did wrote a few songs lahz den lesheng got help them wif sum edits too....now left 2 more songs to record n tada it'll b ready for release!now tat nic is free in e nite i believe e ep will b done soon le bahz...but arhs vry sad thing is they dun have a proper album instead lorz....hmmm summore by e time ep released i think their 1 yr contract wud have ended soon le so dun think their company will b so gd to extend their contract lorz....haiez...n yep sum1 did gave mi nic's no ooomMGG....no i didn msg him its juz in my hp for looking only...hmmm but dunno whether e no is real or fake e lorz tsk tsk....

went out wif tat guy he's nice n sweet hmmm but till now dun really knoe much abt him yet n he asked mi to b his gf alr....jialat got a feeling if accept sure wun last long lorz...but he's nice to his gfs can see e lahz....evn my sis said so...but she told mi too careful of him can see he's a person who vry gd in sweet-talking n not e kind of gd guy lahz....i'm 19 n he's 24 5 yrs diff of age eh....haiez another 2 guys from e pub told mi they like mi too....i seem to attract those vry much older den mi lorz also dunno y eh....1 is 28yo n e other 32!haeiz no have young guy eh only yest got 1 think ard my age bahz hmmm weird thing lahz....

hmmm we went to watch the no 23....it wasn tat nice a show eh...theres other shows i wud wanna watch but still dunno wat show is nice eh....hmmmm anybody have any shows to intro??hmmm can say he's e 1st guy to pay for evryting during e date....i felt a little guilty eh having made him fork out money for evryting i used...hmmmm =x

i haven got my pay yet....so sad boss owe mi 4days pay n 2 days cab fare le lahz.....=C damn it sia....hmmm after working there my spoken eng seems to b getting btr alr....n also i've more confident in speaking to others now....hmmm can say getting bolder le able to approach strangers n start a small chat wif them....but arhs i still dun really dare to approach those in big gps esp guys e n also those couples couples lorz....dun wanna disturb them eh but sumtimes also needa go talk to them den does make mi a bit weird...

hmmm boss bought us to 2 clubs alr....1 is naughty gals e other is momo hmmmm finally got to momo alr erm yest wasn quite fun bahz mayb coz go club no dance=weird?hahaahs...

hmmm alot of things to blog but dunno where to start from.....work's okay evrything's going on fine n boss evn took us to 'naughty gals' on sat nite....chiong all e way till 7-8++ den go back...jialat lorz tat place is filled wif ugly guys slutty gals n weird weird ppl.....we had e chance to go to e vip rm coz of sum super duper rich fella who came to our pub n brought us all there....n i realise if u're rich u can really get anything u wan....tsk tsk...evyrbody had to wait till tat multi-millionaire woke up den can leave e place lahz....tats y we cudn go hm early...haiez...

n his assistant another pervert....talked to my sis n mi all nite...actually he make mi feel disgusted....another guy who kept touching my hands arrrggghhhsss.....i dun like it...when we were abt to leave u knoe wat he asked mi??at tat time i was so shocked i felt like vomitting all my stomach n intestines out....he actually wanted to 'take care' of mi lahz....kaow eh 20yrs older den mi still dare to say this kinda stuffs....yucks do i look so cheap lahz....yah mayb i do esp since i'm working at e pub n it'll give ppl those kinda feeling i'm a bad n slutty gal rite....haiez...=(

hmmm i think i'm beginning to like this guy i met at e pub le...jialat but i dun think i shuld....he seems quite a nice guy n he's real cute n he can sing his eyes r really mesmerizing.....but i felt weird how cum he's not attached if he's really tat nice a guy....summore he does frequent pubs hmmm made mi feel evn more insecure....hmmm wat to do now??haiez

he said my smile is nice tats y he wanna knoe mi....yest he met my sis n he said he wasn interested in her at all tat made mi felt real weird...coz nobody has evr said my sis is not pretty....arrrggghhhsss yah i shuld ctrl my feelings....this r/s shuld b vry impossible....coz he's too cute to b true....for mi my looks dun match him alr....arrrggghhhsss i also wish to bcum prettier but it seems impossible....ssooo sians...

he asked mi out for a date on wed...how how how shuld i go??or shuld i reject him eh.....i'm confused...