today has been a bad day.....i guess it has greatly affected my feelings....my cramps got abit bad painkillers didn help....hot water didn help...still needa work...standing from 10-10....rest didn help too....back pain added insult to my mood...evrything is simply so damn fucked up...i needed someone there by my side....yet...
msgs seems short n it made me didn want to say anything much....e person who provided e comfort wasn e person i had expected....small inexpensive gift but it did cheer mi up aliitle....whole trip home was saddening....i was thinking maybe i m unimportant bahz....mood gotten evn more worse when i reached hm...evn more problems await....dun understand how come they seems never ending....
guess i'm gonna lose slp again today bahz....haiez but i'm really really very tired....tired coz of all e stuffs that happened....not just tnite....but throughout e whole week....guess dont be bothered helps more bahz....our r/s seems abit tensed....is it really e case?i know i want you...yet i dont know whether i should continue holding on to u or not.....