hmmmm 3 more days n off i am to starting a new phrase in my life....scared yet i'm left without much choice....i guess i'll just have to make sure i stay on for the whole 4 years n dont get kick out of school....college of engineering=??? dont know what i want for my future....
.mechanical emgineering
.electrical n electronics engineering
.civil engineering
.environmental engineerign

if only i've done better for my alevels then i wouldn have needeed to be here freding over all this....haiez guess its simply too late for regrets anyways....if really i am not able to take it for the first year i guess i've have to discuss with my dad and hopes he will allow me to go to poly to take up occupational therapy already sia....=((

hmmm till now still haven pack my stuffs into my hall....=XX guess i should start already but i'm working for the next 2 days!!!shits sai....timetable quite okay but guess it'll be worse if i start taking on ccas n electives modules....arrrggghhss i guess it should be better this way....hahahas cause i believe it'll help me to get over some matters bahz....lol

meet up with one of my girlfriend on wed night for a small chat....i guess after that i did feel alittle better....hope i didn spoil your day with all my stuffs and thankx for being willing to pei me that night....trying to take her advice in being more kan kai n trying my very best to live my everyday more happily....hope the next time we meet i'll be more raidant n you too smiles =))....in the past i know the actions i've committed and the choices that i've made have sort of dui bu qi you but still i hope we'll become one of the bestest friends one day....=) and i want to let you know you're quite wrong to say that he doesn really listen when you talk...cause he did!hahas

i guess in life you've to really work hard to obtain the stuffs you want the most but still not everything goes on the way you want it to be....if everything were to be so smooth sailing i guess it wouldn be called life anymores....everybody have to go through a certain patch in life no matter whether its a rough obstacle or a happy moment we still cannot turn our backs on our problems or else it will accumulate to become a snowball reaction bahz....hahhas crappy posts lalala i'm still feeling down nows i guess....

maybe i shouldn even be bothered and maybe i should simply give up....but i'm trying to hang on...for some reasons...which i'm not very sure what it is nows anymore....i hope i hadn made the wrong decision in hanging on like that though i've been scolded alot of times for doing so hahas....if it was really something i shouldn do then take it as a lesson learnt and never commit the same mistake bahz....no wrong doings=wouldn be able to know what's truly right anyways....i'm still living in confusion i guess....mind seeems to be churning alot of thoughts but i cant seem to precess what they are.....i guess by the time these pieces are fixed togetheri'll get the answer i want already....so i'm hoping my brain can start to work faster and for me to stop being a retard and grow up nows!!!hahahahahahas

hmmmm it's been a long time since my posts have been so long lolol should end here le...take cares all!!n remember to smiles!!!cause one's emotions will be able to affect those around you so no matter how terribly upset you are complain to those around you for awhile but never let it drag on because they'll feel more awkward and upset if you do that....wahahahas