hmmm guess now i'll be able to blog in peace le....hahahas now guess i dun needa really be mindful of what i m going to write le bahz....been a tiring week....ever since sch started, nt seems to have been smooth sailing...

cudn get e extra modules i wanted to take nor did i manage to join e ccas i wanna be in.....nows dunno wat exactly i want in life alr...to cont staying in hall need to earn 13pts...but now if i manage to bcum a ogl i will only be able to get abt 5 pts....damn it guess nxt yr will have to wake up early to go to sch le sia haahs...

past few days kept quarreling wif my boi....sumtimes i really hate electronic devices...it kinda cause some sort of misunderstandings to arise out of e blue....haiez is it really true that all ppl cant be trusted in this world?help mi....help mi start thinking more deeply....i realised my mindset seems too shallow...=(( help mi be more able to express myself arrrggghhhss......

actually at present i m still wondering...have i reallly made e wrong choice?taken e wrong step?shuld i simply give up everything....its true i do feel for him,alots.....but y do i have e kinda feelign tat it doesn really matter whether i exist in his life or not....hahahas he always say its bcoz i thnink too much....whether this is true or not i dunno....i cant seeems to guess whas on his mind alwaz...

its been 4mths alr....but to mi it seems as though a vry long time....in this 4 mths alot of stuffs have since happened....i've shed alot of tears...be it for good or for bad reasons.....everytime whenevr i m ready to end evryting, my heart will start to have mixed feelings again after some times....yahs i knoe i'm vry contradicitng.....i'd wanted him to be e guy..e last guy in my life...but can he be e one actually i dun really think so....not coz of e differences in us be it education level or wat....hahahs i aint pretty with a bad figure n i can be vry stoopid sumtiems with a bad temper....its true juz tat sum of u haven seen it only....hahahs so if a sweeter gal were to appear i guess !!bbooom!! it'll be over for us le...LOLOL do he really love mi or nots...or m i just one of his many flings...

i hadn dare tell him....whenever any gals msg or contact him it makes mi feel vry vry uncomfortable in e heart.....evn though he tried comforting mi saying they are all his frens but i dun think any gals wud be able to take it if ur bf were to be so close to their gal friends rite....evn if it is considered to be a jk i dun think a guy shuld be doing this bahz....

i'm actually feeling vry uneasy abt his guan xi wif his ex....they once shared a r/s n it aint a short one....evn though they had broken up but i knoe they are still in contact vry frequently....both say they are sharing a pure frenship for now...but u confirm this frenship wun rekindle ur feelings for each other mahz.....ive been quite vexed abt this....u've given up on mi for a few times coz of her....can u be real sure it wudn happen again mahz.....how sure can u be of it den....u've said bfore she knoes e way u handle things n also understand u...if tats e case u sure ur feelings for her wudn cum back again....haiez

heys heys dun worry i'm juz trying to vent my frustration in writing....i'm really ok behind e screen hahas so u guys dun need console mi....give mi a gd nice warm hug nxt time if u want to make mi feel btr...hahas