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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

its been more den 12hrs alr....but my tears still cant stop its stoopid nonsense....not evn when i'm on my way to work nor at work nor evn when i'm on my way hm....all e road signs all e songs they play all these stoopid shit reminds mi of u....wat e fuck is this...nvr have i been crying for this long....my makeup was ruined my eys swell up like hell but wat to do....my tears cant b controlled...

i did drink alot today but how cum i still cant get drunk tnite??e nausea sensation is terrible but not as bad as how my heart is....my vision is still blur this time not only coz of my tears but also coz of my lens....mayb have been crying too much earlier on nth is clear in my path evn when there's no tears....i tot evrybody told mi a sad person will get drunk more easily how cum i'm still not knocked out yet?!!i still cant get to slp till now....as i m writing this entry tat song i got from u is playing in e back....e last song we heard tgt....though its only been a short period with u but thanx for e great memories....

i'm really missing u alot alot now....ur voice ur hugs n ur kisses....n juz evryting abt u....u didn have a choice i didn have e chance i juz blame god for letting mi knoe u.....if i had known such a thing will happen i wud rather not have known u at all....at least i wudn have to recall abt anything....i kept having stoopid tots....hahas when u told mi u got back wif her i evn tot of telling u i dun mind u cont our r/s juz to keep u by my side u knoe...yahs i knoe i;m vry stoopid rites...degrading myself rites haas

they're scolding mi stoopid for letting myself b so terribly shattered for a guy i've been wif for only less den a mth....esp since i've met u at a pub i shuld b called a real idiot...hahas mayb i m....i will get over it e....of coz i have to....no matter wat u wun cum back to mi anymore....i didn evn had e chance to tell u how much i really love u....but it doesn really matter alr rites hahas....dun understand how cum e more i laugh e more tears falls down...haas thanx guys n dun worry i'll b fine....by when??i dunno.

~ { 04:08 }
marssh